haha, this video is FREAKING FUNNY! post it here so easier to find next time. haha. to entertain myself.
enjoy! :D
Polar Ber
29 December 2007
28 December 2007
HAHA! i SOOO gotta blog about what happened at Marina Square today. haha!!!
after I Am Legend and having some Shilin Chicken. Fernie and I were walking outta Marina, towards the MRT. and guess who i saw?!?! _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!! haha. and guess what i did? i did something damn embarrassing! i shouted damn loudy, "_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!!!" haha! i only wanted to tell fernie quietly. but as you know. i'm loud by nature. it came out DAMN LOUD. so loud that the person in front me (about 4 steps away) turned around. HAHA! thankgoodness the person didn't hear. oh gosh. if not he might be wondering who the hell called his name. haha! then after i exclaimed i just burst into laughter. i couldn't stop all the way till we were out of Marina. hahaha.
okay, so that was the most embarrassing thing i had done since a long time. haha! and i think i was smiling like some idiot on the train home whenever i thought of that incident. haha!
anyway, this week is a happy week! haha. firstly, i found all the It Started With A Kiss songs!!! :DD secondly, went Pitstop Cafe with The Usuals :DDDD haha. it was damn fun! even though i had to leave early (again) for violin lesson :( but oh well! it was memorable. haha. thanks pals! must go there again!!! :))
after I Am Legend and having some Shilin Chicken. Fernie and I were walking outta Marina, towards the MRT. and guess who i saw?!?! _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!! haha. and guess what i did? i did something damn embarrassing! i shouted damn loudy, "_ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!!!!" haha! i only wanted to tell fernie quietly. but as you know. i'm loud by nature. it came out DAMN LOUD. so loud that the person in front me (about 4 steps away) turned around. HAHA! thankgoodness the person didn't hear. oh gosh. if not he might be wondering who the hell called his name. haha! then after i exclaimed i just burst into laughter. i couldn't stop all the way till we were out of Marina. hahaha.
okay, so that was the most embarrassing thing i had done since a long time. haha! and i think i was smiling like some idiot on the train home whenever i thought of that incident. haha!
anyway, this week is a happy week! haha. firstly, i found all the It Started With A Kiss songs!!! :DD secondly, went Pitstop Cafe with The Usuals :DDDD haha. it was damn fun! even though i had to leave early (again) for violin lesson :( but oh well! it was memorable. haha. thanks pals! must go there again!!! :))
17 December 2007
this is DAMN hilarious. haha. for the sake of all those people who do not have facebook, i pasted the video here. enjoy it! :DD
anyway, there's anything for me to be happy about. i got the Good Progress Award :)) $200. haha. well, i guess getting bad results in my entire JC life except prelims isn't so bad afterall :P
16 December 2007
anyway, forgot about my poor friends who were enlisted today - Wen Nan, Michael and Timothy Misso.ALL THE BEST!! hope you all have a nice buddy! haha.
haha, and NAN! i WON'T die laughing! :P cos both of you enlisted at different times! anyway, doubt you'll see this anytime soon. but yes, look who's got the last laugh!
haha, and NAN! i WON'T die laughing! :P cos both of you enlisted at different times! anyway, doubt you'll see this anytime soon. but yes, look who's got the last laugh!
so, today was YCS Carolling. and it was a MAJOR disappointment :( or rather this major disappointment was made up by many small disappointments.
first things first, Peacehaven cancelled out on us last minute. so we had only one home - Silra Home to visit and four members' houses. well, so we started late. which is actually a good thing since the standard of our singing requires more time for practice. but actually i guess, the practice didn't help much either. alrighty, so just as we were about to set off. some kind soul brought cupcakes for the members to fill their tummys before they sing their hearts out. alrighty, kind deed indeed. our wonderful members had to make a mess out of the huisuo canteen as though they were toddlers who cannot eat properly. and the best thing was there was this very alert and "considerate" uncle who cared so much about being a good citizen and clean up after you mess up. video-ed down the mess that our dear members created. so VIOLA. with time ticking away, our beloved SENIORS had to stay behind to clear up the mess which (i believe) was created by JUNIORS. and thefussy uncle insisted that the place be sparkling clean. alrighty. so we left at around 3.30pm instead of 3pm.
okay, so you thought that wasn't bad enough? because of the delay, our dinner which was scheduled at Silra Home was cleared away because they ate while waitin for us. alrighty, great! but thank God for sending us to Ping Ping's house and of course, we have to take Ping Ping and his family for preparing food for such a big group at such late notice :)) so we were practically like fighting for bread and butter (literally) at Ping Ping's house. haha! alright, thank God for the food. to warm us up a little after braving the rain to get to Ping Ping's house.
alrighty, thank God when we left Ping Ping's house, the rain had stopped. but of course, there was another challenge sent to us. to stand the stench of dog shit on the bus trip to Amos' house. cos some poor fella stepped on it in the dark of the night and boarded the bus without realising. and poor Felicia and I who sat at the front got the full blast of it! cos the leaf with a little shit on it was left at the door step :S alrighty! so you think dog shit is bad enough? after we had a little merry-ing at Amos' house, we came back to board the bus, and TADA. the bus broke down. what a great timing. when everyone (okay, mostly Felicia and I) were DEAD tired. and just wanna get to my house, which the last stop, finish carolling and rush back to the comfort of our homes.
so alrighty, everyone had to alight from the bus and wait for another bus to charter everyone to my house. and actually i kinda pity the bus driver. he just cleaned up the mess we made, and his bus broke down. :\ and poor him didn't get any dinner from us so i bet he was hungry and angry. gosh.
alrighty, thankgoodness we finally managed to get to my house :) carolled. or rather Felicia and I just sat there with my family and watch them carol. cos i'm just simply too tired. and have absolutely no mood to sing anymore. after a day of nonsense?! all the rowdy boys, noise pollution, a day spent doing something that i've been doing for several years. singing the same old songs that according to Ping Ping, havn't changed for SEVEN years. oh gosh. and to think i could have spent the day practising violin and maybe mastering my Mozart Concerto a little more. argh. i actually brought my violin early to yesterday. and got DRENCHED in the FREAKING DOWNPOUR while WAITING to cross the junction. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???? just like maybe 5 min. and to arrive late, i THOUGHT i remembered my teacher said 1630 but when i reached at 1640, he told me, i must have remembered wrongly, supposed to be 4pm lesson. :\ GREAT. so i was 40 min late??? rightttt. but i sooo remembered he told me 1630. arggh. nvm. at least he say the next lesson he'll pick me up so i won't be late. ha. so yeah, i had to end lesson 20 min early cos another student was there since 1650. and start lesson with both my legs dripping wet. i thought i was going to freeze to death and probably catch a cold. but thanks to the Mozart Concerto which requires so much energy and concentration to play it. i kinda forgot my legs were wet. and the rainwater actually dried up, though my slippers were still wet even after i ended lesson.
alrighty, so yes. talkin about violin lesson, if only i hadn't changed it. i'll probably reach on time and DRY today. hurh. oh well, what's done cannot be undone. but maybe it doesn't work for words that were said or rather typed. alrighty, maybe it's just my plain stupidity and innocence. i mean, i OBVIOUSLY knew that they won't go. why did i even bother to remind them not to PS. and i actually believed. okay, ber is dumb i know. it was pretty obvious when i couldn't wake fernie up at 1130. it was like okayyyy. as usual. that log. okay, i shall call her house. smart move. Douglas Low left the house phone THERE. while waking fernie up. and he never went back to put down the phone. i hung up after waiting for 3 min of silence. okay. then when i tried to call the house phone again. it was engaged. ALRIGHT. smart. so i called her aunt to call Douglas' hp. and haha, wow. didn't work. her house phone was engaged ALL the way till afternoon when aunt finally went home. gosh. i pity all those who tried to call them but to no avail. oh well, at least when aunty reached home, fernie woke up. haha. i mean, i knew it was GG when her house phone was engaged. since today is her official first day of holiday, and after chionging all her projects and all, she must be DEAD tired. so okay, i knew she wouldn't wake up on time the night before, so i made a mental to myself to wake-up-call-her. and yes, i knew it that when she woke up in the afternoon she'll be too lazy to come. ha! yes fernie! you are predictable :P your pattern will never change lah. ha. especially when you kena your thing and with a stupid rainy weather like today. haha. alrighty, it's okay. i understand your laziness. so yes, of cos i understand our two other dear friends' laziness too. i knew it when i asked Gareth yesterday if he's coming. and he told me he might be too lazy to wake up to reach huisuo by 1pm today. okay, mind you, the meeting time is ONE PM IN THE AFTERNOON. okay. it's alright. i know my sleepin patterns are different from theirs. cos i sleep in the night while they sleep in the day. haha! okay, shit. i'm feeling like the computer is tilting. and my keyboard is slanted. ahhhh. what is happening to me? i'm feeling lopsided. haha.
okay, that's beside the point. alrighty. lemme continue, so Alvan and Gareth were supposed to meet us at Ping Ping's house at around 4(the scheduled time). and okay, since everything was delayed. i told him he can meet us at Amos' house instead. but nvm, he wanted to have dinner at home. okay, it's fine. and i sooo knew that after dinner he won't come at all. since it's so late. and by the time he finished dinner. he'll only be visiting one house. and that's pretty retarded. to come all the way down to carol at one house. you might as well don't come. so okay. nvm. i know it's late. like duh, it'll be late if you wanna come after dinner. nevermind. but if you know you'll be too lazy and you wanna have dinner at home. don't promise someone you won't PS and then break that promise. because disappointment after hope is worse than just disappointment at the start.
so all in all, today is the WORST carolling i've ever been to. okay, of cos thank God for sending Felicia to this carollling with me. cos her parents are out of town. so she couldn't stand the silence of her house. haha! alrighty, and thanks for the lameness and jokes that the kids brought. kids meaning the older kids. haha! not those irritating younger ones. haha. older kids meaning Marcus, Iggy, Yongwen, Dickson, Sherwin, Andrew. and at least Donavan was there. i thought Felicia and I were gonna be the oldest there after Daphne and Jenny. haha. okay, i think i can't take it anymore. must be too much shhhh-ing and noise pollution today.
first things first, Peacehaven cancelled out on us last minute. so we had only one home - Silra Home to visit and four members' houses. well, so we started late. which is actually a good thing since the standard of our singing requires more time for practice. but actually i guess, the practice didn't help much either. alrighty, so just as we were about to set off. some kind soul brought cupcakes for the members to fill their tummys before they sing their hearts out. alrighty, kind deed indeed. our wonderful members had to make a mess out of the huisuo canteen as though they were toddlers who cannot eat properly. and the best thing was there was this very alert and "considerate" uncle who cared so much about being a good citizen and clean up after you mess up. video-ed down the mess that our dear members created. so VIOLA. with time ticking away, our beloved SENIORS had to stay behind to clear up the mess which (i believe) was created by JUNIORS. and the
okay, so you thought that wasn't bad enough? because of the delay, our dinner which was scheduled at Silra Home was cleared away because they ate while waitin for us. alrighty, great! but thank God for sending us to Ping Ping's house and of course, we have to take Ping Ping and his family for preparing food for such a big group at such late notice :)) so we were practically like fighting for bread and butter (literally) at Ping Ping's house. haha! alright, thank God for the food. to warm us up a little after braving the rain to get to Ping Ping's house.
alrighty, thank God when we left Ping Ping's house, the rain had stopped. but of course, there was another challenge sent to us. to stand the stench of dog shit on the bus trip to Amos' house. cos some poor fella stepped on it in the dark of the night and boarded the bus without realising. and poor Felicia and I who sat at the front got the full blast of it! cos the leaf with a little shit on it was left at the door step :S alrighty! so you think dog shit is bad enough? after we had a little merry-ing at Amos' house, we came back to board the bus, and TADA. the bus broke down. what a great timing. when everyone (okay, mostly Felicia and I) were DEAD tired. and just wanna get to my house, which the last stop, finish carolling and rush back to the comfort of our homes.
so alrighty, everyone had to alight from the bus and wait for another bus to charter everyone to my house. and actually i kinda pity the bus driver. he just cleaned up the mess we made, and his bus broke down. :\ and poor him didn't get any dinner from us so i bet he was hungry and angry. gosh.
alrighty, thankgoodness we finally managed to get to my house :) carolled. or rather Felicia and I just sat there with my family and watch them carol. cos i'm just simply too tired. and have absolutely no mood to sing anymore. after a day of nonsense?! all the rowdy boys, noise pollution, a day spent doing something that i've been doing for several years. singing the same old songs that according to Ping Ping, havn't changed for SEVEN years. oh gosh. and to think i could have spent the day practising violin and maybe mastering my Mozart Concerto a little more. argh. i actually brought my violin early to yesterday. and got DRENCHED in the FREAKING DOWNPOUR while WAITING to cross the junction. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???? just like maybe 5 min. and to arrive late, i THOUGHT i remembered my teacher said 1630 but when i reached at 1640, he told me, i must have remembered wrongly, supposed to be 4pm lesson. :\ GREAT. so i was 40 min late??? rightttt. but i sooo remembered he told me 1630. arggh. nvm. at least he say the next lesson he'll pick me up so i won't be late. ha. so yeah, i had to end lesson 20 min early cos another student was there since 1650. and start lesson with both my legs dripping wet. i thought i was going to freeze to death and probably catch a cold. but thanks to the Mozart Concerto which requires so much energy and concentration to play it. i kinda forgot my legs were wet. and the rainwater actually dried up, though my slippers were still wet even after i ended lesson.
alrighty, so yes. talkin about violin lesson, if only i hadn't changed it. i'll probably reach on time and DRY today. hurh. oh well, what's done cannot be undone. but maybe it doesn't work for words that were said or rather typed. alrighty, maybe it's just my plain stupidity and innocence. i mean, i OBVIOUSLY knew that they won't go. why did i even bother to remind them not to PS. and i actually believed. okay, ber is dumb i know. it was pretty obvious when i couldn't wake fernie up at 1130. it was like okayyyy. as usual. that log. okay, i shall call her house. smart move. Douglas Low left the house phone THERE. while waking fernie up. and he never went back to put down the phone. i hung up after waiting for 3 min of silence. okay. then when i tried to call the house phone again. it was engaged. ALRIGHT. smart. so i called her aunt to call Douglas' hp. and haha, wow. didn't work. her house phone was engaged ALL the way till afternoon when aunt finally went home. gosh. i pity all those who tried to call them but to no avail. oh well, at least when aunty reached home, fernie woke up. haha. i mean, i knew it was GG when her house phone was engaged. since today is her official first day of holiday, and after chionging all her projects and all, she must be DEAD tired. so okay, i knew she wouldn't wake up on time the night before, so i made a mental to myself to wake-up-call-her. and yes, i knew it that when she woke up in the afternoon she'll be too lazy to come. ha! yes fernie! you are predictable :P your pattern will never change lah. ha. especially when you kena your thing and with a stupid rainy weather like today. haha. alrighty, it's okay. i understand your laziness. so yes, of cos i understand our two other dear friends' laziness too. i knew it when i asked Gareth yesterday if he's coming. and he told me he might be too lazy to wake up to reach huisuo by 1pm today. okay, mind you, the meeting time is ONE PM IN THE AFTERNOON. okay. it's alright. i know my sleepin patterns are different from theirs. cos i sleep in the night while they sleep in the day. haha! okay, shit. i'm feeling like the computer is tilting. and my keyboard is slanted. ahhhh. what is happening to me? i'm feeling lopsided. haha.
okay, that's beside the point. alrighty. lemme continue, so Alvan and Gareth were supposed to meet us at Ping Ping's house at around 4(the scheduled time). and okay, since everything was delayed. i told him he can meet us at Amos' house instead. but nvm, he wanted to have dinner at home. okay, it's fine. and i sooo knew that after dinner he won't come at all. since it's so late. and by the time he finished dinner. he'll only be visiting one house. and that's pretty retarded. to come all the way down to carol at one house. you might as well don't come. so okay. nvm. i know it's late. like duh, it'll be late if you wanna come after dinner. nevermind. but if you know you'll be too lazy and you wanna have dinner at home. don't promise someone you won't PS and then break that promise. because disappointment after hope is worse than just disappointment at the start.
so all in all, today is the WORST carolling i've ever been to. okay, of cos thank God for sending Felicia to this carollling with me. cos her parents are out of town. so she couldn't stand the silence of her house. haha! alrighty, and thanks for the lameness and jokes that the kids brought. kids meaning the older kids. haha! not those irritating younger ones. haha. older kids meaning Marcus, Iggy, Yongwen, Dickson, Sherwin, Andrew. and at least Donavan was there. i thought Felicia and I were gonna be the oldest there after Daphne and Jenny. haha. okay, i think i can't take it anymore. must be too much shhhh-ing and noise pollution today.
11 December 2007
okay, apologies for the lag post. although many events have passed. i still don't have the mood to update. haha. maybe i'm just plained lazy. oh well, lemme start with...
051207
SAJC Prom. it was not as bad as i had expected it to be. haha! at least there's handsome lead singer in some band that our school has invited to play for us whom Melanie went gaga over. haha! anyway, think the more fun part was Mambo after prom. haha even though it was my first time there, i still enjoyed it. didn't plan to go at first since Fernie couldn't make it. but i still did, cos i couldn't bear to "destroy" my 35bucks hairdo. haha!!! and i found out that Felicia Yeo will be there too :) however, due to the TERRIBLE TERRIBLE crowd that night i couldn't find her at all :\ yes, it was freaking crowded that night since it was a Mambo night, our prom night and a few uni finished their exams, so yeah :| anyway, packed is one thing. the most disgusting part are those IRRITATING people who think they're oh-so-good-dancers but actually can't even dance to the beat, yet they keep pushing and shoving their asses into other peoples' space.
071205
Tanning with Yi at Sentosa was pretty enjoyable. even though we only had like at most 2 hours of sunshine. haha! the previous i prayed and prayed for fine weather that day. haha, and my prayers worked after all! :D haha, we went there sooo early we had to sit at some weathered rock while watching employees of Cafe del Mar slowly take their time to prepare for opening hours. haha! anyway, thank God removed those dark clouds at around noon for us to get burnt :)) hehe. after tanning, Yi and I head down to Vivo to meet her friend while i met Fernie for like a few seconds to pass her her camera for her to snap photos at the Science Centre. haha. after eating our fill, walked around Vivo, then met up with Shimah at about 4pm to meet our class guys to go to the airport to send Kenneth off to Medan. that poor guy ALMOST missed his flight. haha! then Casper said machiam Amazing Race. cos when they announce last call, dear Kenneth was still at BK while his baggage were all at Macs with his friend. and if you know Changi Airport Terminal 2 well enough, you'll know that this two fast food outlets are at 2 ends of T2. hahaha! so Casper had to run with him to Macs to grab his stuff then run to the departure hall. haha! and when kenneth just went pass the counter they already say gate closing, we were so afraid that he'll miss his flight yet he just continue strolling. haha! but thankgoodness, he caught it :)
anyway, the coolest part of the trip to Changi is that i actually met Yi!!! who was flying off on the same night as Kenneth to England to meet her sister. haha! i coincidentally met her at T1 while i was walking pass to get to the skytrain to get to T3. haha! we were so excited! and thank God that silly girl didn't end up in India since she was pretty nervous cos it's her first time travelling overseas alone. anyway, met Qiuning there too. she was there sending 3 of her scholar classmates off. haha! it's just amazing how small Singapore is. haha!
091205
nothing much, just shopping with my aunt at Vivocity after church. haha. more exciting thing was the Star Awards at night. haha!!
alrighty, Fernie's sending me all the photos i took! :)) but i'm too lazy to upload them here. shall just upload them to facebook. hehe. anyway, my life's the same everyday. wake up, breakfast, practise violin, watch my taiwan drama - It Started With A Kiss. hahah! Jiro is damn cute!!! but pitiful :( he likes the main character, XiangQin for five years but she likes another guy (for five years too). and obviously you know what will happen... haha!
anyway, speaking of my violin. haii, i'm losing more and more confidence :( Mozart's Concertos are just so hard to master! AHHHH. i feel like giving up. seriously. the more i practise the more notes i keep mis-pitching (if there's such a word) arghhhhhhh... and it requires clarity and precision but must not be played in a boring manner. AHHHH.
i was suddenly struck with the question that am i really suitable to be a musician? as in to take on this path. i really don't know. i started to ask myself what's my passion in the first. after watching all kinds of drama which tell you to follow your heart and passion blah blah blah. then i thought, well, my passion lies with animals. my first dream was to be a marine biologist. but i just suck at chem and bio. so i kinda gave it up. so now i'm practising hard to fulfil this dream to be a musician which i kinda realise it's something like my violin teacher's dream. cos he was the one who persuaded me to apply for Yong Siew Toh. well, he just told me the pros of being a musician. and being an easily persuaded person, i just "uhhh. okayy.." so gave it a try. but AHHHH. i really doubt my ability now. i'm sooo not perfect pitch. i'm starting to think i'm losing my sense of pitching. i can't differentiate all the slight mis-pitches! :\ and i believe i am not as musically inclined as my brother. nevertheless, i cannot say i don't like music. i really love to play music with people like in string orchestra and band. but playing solo maybe just isn't my type. but how can i survive if i have to rely on people all the time? ahhhh. maybe i should just stick to being an engineer. but now i kinda regret cos i don't think i'll have very good A level results. so i might not get into the course i want even if i don't take music. so now i'm kinda stuck with the path i chose. to practise hard for violin. and AYE, i'll just leave the rest to God. if i'm meant to be a musician, i will be. and continue to believe that a miracle might happen within one month - that i can miraculously pitch ALL my stupid running notes in the Concerto, including the stupid Cadenza. my poor-thing teacher say Mozart's Concerto is so tiring to play and teach. haha! even he is tired teaching it. gosh. maybe it's just me being a lousy player. there're like sooo many pros and child prodigies out there. i'm like nothing compared to them :\ ahhhhh.
okay, i think you've had enough of my ranting. on a happier note, Christmas is coming!! :))) the season of giving and receiving :P hahaha. but it's another headache when you can't think of what presents to give. hahaha! what an irony it is. isn't Christmas supposed to be a season to be jolly? oh well, at least i know i'll have fun this christmas eve! :)) okay, i think i'm gonna watch the new 9 o'clock show now. haha! later!
051207
SAJC Prom. it was not as bad as i had expected it to be. haha! at least there's handsome lead singer in some band that our school has invited to play for us whom Melanie went gaga over. haha! anyway, think the more fun part was Mambo after prom. haha even though it was my first time there, i still enjoyed it. didn't plan to go at first since Fernie couldn't make it. but i still did, cos i couldn't bear to "destroy" my 35bucks hairdo. haha!!! and i found out that Felicia Yeo will be there too :) however, due to the TERRIBLE TERRIBLE crowd that night i couldn't find her at all :\ yes, it was freaking crowded that night since it was a Mambo night, our prom night and a few uni finished their exams, so yeah :| anyway, packed is one thing. the most disgusting part are those IRRITATING people who think they're oh-so-good-dancers but actually can't even dance to the beat, yet they keep pushing and shoving their asses into other peoples' space.
071205
Tanning with Yi at Sentosa was pretty enjoyable. even though we only had like at most 2 hours of sunshine. haha! the previous i prayed and prayed for fine weather that day. haha, and my prayers worked after all! :D haha, we went there sooo early we had to sit at some weathered rock while watching employees of Cafe del Mar slowly take their time to prepare for opening hours. haha! anyway, thank God removed those dark clouds at around noon for us to get burnt :)) hehe. after tanning, Yi and I head down to Vivo to meet her friend while i met Fernie for like a few seconds to pass her her camera for her to snap photos at the Science Centre. haha. after eating our fill, walked around Vivo, then met up with Shimah at about 4pm to meet our class guys to go to the airport to send Kenneth off to Medan. that poor guy ALMOST missed his flight. haha! then Casper said machiam Amazing Race. cos when they announce last call, dear Kenneth was still at BK while his baggage were all at Macs with his friend. and if you know Changi Airport Terminal 2 well enough, you'll know that this two fast food outlets are at 2 ends of T2. hahaha! so Casper had to run with him to Macs to grab his stuff then run to the departure hall. haha! and when kenneth just went pass the counter they already say gate closing, we were so afraid that he'll miss his flight yet he just continue strolling. haha! but thankgoodness, he caught it :)
anyway, the coolest part of the trip to Changi is that i actually met Yi!!! who was flying off on the same night as Kenneth to England to meet her sister. haha! i coincidentally met her at T1 while i was walking pass to get to the skytrain to get to T3. haha! we were so excited! and thank God that silly girl didn't end up in India since she was pretty nervous cos it's her first time travelling overseas alone. anyway, met Qiuning there too. she was there sending 3 of her scholar classmates off. haha! it's just amazing how small Singapore is. haha!
091205
nothing much, just shopping with my aunt at Vivocity after church. haha. more exciting thing was the Star Awards at night. haha!!
alrighty, Fernie's sending me all the photos i took! :)) but i'm too lazy to upload them here. shall just upload them to facebook. hehe. anyway, my life's the same everyday. wake up, breakfast, practise violin, watch my taiwan drama - It Started With A Kiss. hahah! Jiro is damn cute!!! but pitiful :( he likes the main character, XiangQin for five years but she likes another guy (for five years too). and obviously you know what will happen... haha!
anyway, speaking of my violin. haii, i'm losing more and more confidence :( Mozart's Concertos are just so hard to master! AHHHH. i feel like giving up. seriously. the more i practise the more notes i keep mis-pitching (if there's such a word) arghhhhhhh... and it requires clarity and precision but must not be played in a boring manner. AHHHH.
i was suddenly struck with the question that am i really suitable to be a musician? as in to take on this path. i really don't know. i started to ask myself what's my passion in the first. after watching all kinds of drama which tell you to follow your heart and passion blah blah blah. then i thought, well, my passion lies with animals. my first dream was to be a marine biologist. but i just suck at chem and bio. so i kinda gave it up. so now i'm practising hard to fulfil this dream to be a musician which i kinda realise it's something like my violin teacher's dream. cos he was the one who persuaded me to apply for Yong Siew Toh. well, he just told me the pros of being a musician. and being an easily persuaded person, i just "uhhh. okayy.." so gave it a try. but AHHHH. i really doubt my ability now. i'm sooo not perfect pitch. i'm starting to think i'm losing my sense of pitching. i can't differentiate all the slight mis-pitches! :\ and i believe i am not as musically inclined as my brother. nevertheless, i cannot say i don't like music. i really love to play music with people like in string orchestra and band. but playing solo maybe just isn't my type. but how can i survive if i have to rely on people all the time? ahhhh. maybe i should just stick to being an engineer. but now i kinda regret cos i don't think i'll have very good A level results. so i might not get into the course i want even if i don't take music. so now i'm kinda stuck with the path i chose. to practise hard for violin. and AYE, i'll just leave the rest to God. if i'm meant to be a musician, i will be. and continue to believe that a miracle might happen within one month - that i can miraculously pitch ALL my stupid running notes in the Concerto, including the stupid Cadenza. my poor-thing teacher say Mozart's Concerto is so tiring to play and teach. haha! even he is tired teaching it. gosh. maybe it's just me being a lousy player. there're like sooo many pros and child prodigies out there. i'm like nothing compared to them :\ ahhhhh.
okay, i think you've had enough of my ranting. on a happier note, Christmas is coming!! :))) the season of giving and receiving :P hahaha. but it's another headache when you can't think of what presents to give. hahaha! what an irony it is. isn't Christmas supposed to be a season to be jolly? oh well, at least i know i'll have fun this christmas eve! :)) okay, i think i'm gonna watch the new 9 o'clock show now. haha! later!